how it actually started i dunno...
it simply seems that im running away from reality..
mayb it is true..
aiming to chiong fer my 4th job is reali part of my plans now..
trying to pack each and every dae
even thou i noe that im going to b ill..
putting all my efforts and remaining time to my dear ariel seems most impt in the list now..
it seems so peaceful to be with ariel each time...
been tearing fer so long that each tearing is becoming a normal process every other dae..
trying to hang out with lots and lots of other frenz ard is becoming an excuse to avoid..
staying out till late nites now appear to be a medication fer mi to sleep well
working endlessly till tired seems a remedy to cure tearing..
i told my fren recently that i shld stop or try stopping.
how on earth am i going to do, i have no freaking idea..
perhaps a way is to close up myself..
avoiding lyk wad most pple will do..
isolating from the crowd..
i do not noe how i hav came to tis stage..
where it is so hurtful, disappointing, upsetting, down, heartbreaking and painful..
the onli solution that i could think of now is to work..
earn lots of money, spoilling myself with wadever i wan, playing anything when i feel lyk
crush had confession
yet being pushed away
like had commitments
waiting is the choice
being stuck
it is hard to get out and move on
but it is time to set it free
i will step out from all and be myself once again.
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