been superb busy yet again....
anywae, i wuld lyk to thank jer fer helping mi....

and also.. thank you those who came on sundae =p
photos will take some time...

somehow, im looking forward for my papers to finish..
im looking forward in finding a new job
im looking forward to the end of the yr to celebrate christmas
im looking forward to go to perth in march...

how isit going to come true i have no idea..
how to make everything happen i have no idea too..
there are yet so many things that i wanna do...

recently quite pissed off with my project mate...
it was damn hard coordinating,... i had to try all sorts of way juz to make myself feel better that im not a bad leader..
of course, things gets done, at the expense of me putting much effort and ended up felt lyk stabbing myself cos pple didnt understand wad was required in the project itself where it was clearly stated by the lecturer....
seriously, some times i blame myself for assuming that uni students would have alr made it a point to be aware of wad was required in the project scope....

im running low as welll.. i had the stress of finding a job soon so i could start immediately after sch term ends... if not, i might hav diffculty celebrating christmas as usual... haz...

i reali wished to run away, to escape from the reality, to be hidding in one corner where no one can see mi...
but in the real life, it is not possible and not going to happen.. how good it will be to break free....

as im typin on my blog, im waitin for my parents in changi airport with my sis...
Flight got delayed.. And im slackin..
Anywae, on my idea of new media techologies...
It is so fansinating tat pple r growin more inclined to new media tat we r too reliant on them
Even starhub oso hav a new data plan tat offers students to have plans for f.b and twitter

i was actually wondering if u r reading this as i typed...

i kinda missed talking to you.. kinda missed the olden days... but.. i hav thus to let go.. bit by bit.. step by step... little and slowly as time goes by... time heals... i cant help but agree with that.... the veri instance that happened...

now being quite stressed up with my life, i realised that stress was derived from oneself.. and from the veri fact that took up so many previous jobs last time, it did not occur to me that it was stressful.... i suppose work environment places an important role as well.... now that the workplace i am in was in such an unglamourous environment that made me wonder if it was indeed right to take up the job...

i got veri tired of being not appreciated, being in the political circle that i did not wish to get involved in, suddenly realising that my status in the company had became threatened in that sense... and ultimately, i did not feel a sense of belonging lyk before...

i wondered to myself... was that even the real outside world? i thot i had met the worse during my part time work life the previous years.. apparently.. this was even worst then that... i cant imagine what the actual world is turning into...

sometimes... i wondered.. do people change to fit into the majority people in life so that they can be 'easier' off at work or it was reali due to how they wanna change themselves to be...

i wished to focus more on my studies now...
i wished to get more attention from people now..
i wished that people knew about my existence
i wished that the working world is not as complex...

but it was all my wishful thinking...
everyone can be selfish in their own ways..
people can change overnight...
people will tend to disregard or treat people for granted despite their efforts put in...
and yet.. we have to suffer in silence...
and who.. will listen to the pities and woes of these people...
who will make them feel appreciated and recognised...
who will make them worth living of who they are instead of a protrayed image of themselves..
who will....